i have always lived in the thick of mess- piles and pathways- dirty laundry, clean laundry, 1/2 finished crafty projects, filthy dishes- you name it. i was this way, even as a little kid... i wasn't really bothered by the fact that my friends couldn't come over because my room wasn't clean- instead of cleaning my room i would just shove things around enough that there was space for me to make some more mess.
but now i am creeping up on 30 and i have been living on my own for a decade and i am starting to be really bothered by the fact that my little friends can't come over to play and i can't really cook myself dinner because there isn't a pot clean enough to cook and then eat out of...
What is it that's wrong with me? i used to think that that having my things in order just wasn't important- to me and if it ever did become important - to me i would be able to just get right to it.
NOT TRUE.
i need my life to change i want it to change and i feel absolutely powerless to do anything to really change it, or myself.
Please someone help me.
